It was Valentine's Day when my (now ex) boyfriend decided that he was ending things between us and moving back to Cincinnati. It most definitely hasn't been easy since then, but it's getting easier. It's just rough when you totally give yourself to a person, break down all your walls, and just assume you're done with dating for the rest of your life because you've found the right person - to be totally let down and disregarded, in a sense. And yeah... I know everyone has been through it in one way or another... this is just my time to go through it.
Since then I've been bonding with my new best friend. She's my dog. Her name is Darby - she is quite possibly the best thing that he could have left behind for me. He left the bed, a dresser, the TV (which isn't shabby) and the couch - mostly because he didn't want to pay to rent a Uhaul large enough to move everything back to Ohio. But he left Darby, thankfully. It's not like I would have let him take her - but it was nice not having to argue over her.
She's my running buddy in the mornings. I've been getting up before work (why? I'm not sure yet... but it feels good) and running for about 20 mins. I'm only 5 lbs away for my weight loss goal for the year! 135 here I come!! She's my cuddle buddy. She sleeps with her head on my lap in front of the TV in the evenings, when I'm actually graced with enough free time to catch up on my shows. She sleeps with her back against my legs at night - which I learned today is a way for a dog to bond with you. They think with their back against you that you can't leave them, and that way they can protect you from their front. :) Like a 35lb dog is going to protect me, shhh... don't tell her that!
She's there when I want to talk, exercise or hang out. I would call her a hobby sort of, trying not to sound negative. Training a puppy has definitely turned into a hobby. I've taught her to sit, stay, lay down and we're very close to getting roll over. She's not so good with leash manners yet - but it's a process, and I'm not giving up.
It's odd to think that my best friend of 2 1/2 years (that if you would have asked me 6 months ago - I would have said was going to be my life best friend) has been replaced by a canine. But I can't think of a better transition at this point...
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